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Behind the scenes of the fight for the protection of animals and workers and the preservation of the environment - my experiences as a Tyson slaughterhouse hanger/killer turned activist. Exposing the evils of factory farming, by Virgil Butler. If you have arrived here looking for the Tyson stories, view the early archives. Some of them are now featured on the sidebar for easy searching.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

I Am Still Here 

I know that it has been quite a time since I have written, but every time I have tried, well, I just couldn't quite do it. It seemed like every time I wanted to try again it just didn't come out right. I have to admit that I really haven't been doing very well lately. And, frankly, that is why I didn't want to post.

I don't want to worry anyone. But, I do feel it is necessary to at least check in with you all. So many of you have been so very kind and supportive that I guess a part of me feels like I don't want to let you down or something like that. I don't know.

This isn't going well either, is it? See why I haven't written anything else?

But, like I said, I did at least want to check in with everyone, let you know I am still here helping animals, building my house (well, trying at least), and trying to pick up the pieces of my life and continue to walk the path that Virgil and I once walked together.

It's been very hard. Very, very hard. I'm still a bit fragile sometimes, but I have learned that I am so much stronger than I ever thought I was. And I will make it. I just still need a bit more time. Thank you all again for everything you have all done.

And a special thank you to everyone who sent food!

Hey, by the way, anyone interested in a schipperke? I took the time to write a short post about Skipper on the Warm Hearts Humane Society site.

Well, I guess that's all for now. Again, this is just really quite hard for me because I can't do it without crying because it is just such a strong reminder of what I have lost. (Oh, and I guess I should probably say that it has been quite a long time since I have even checked my emails. I have over 10,000 of them piled up. I just can't do it. I hope you understand. I just don't even turn on the computer but maybe once a week for just a few minutes at a time. Anything more and I just get too depressed. If anyone wants to "talk" to me, though, you can leave a comment. Since I have them moderated you can use them kind of like an email if you don't really want to post a comment and just want to contact me privately. Simply state so in the comment, and I will get it at a different email address to read myself without approving the comment to be posted here.)

Thanks again, everyone, for your continued support and understanding.
You dont know how long I have been thinking about you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have told soo many people about your story and enilghtened the world about Virgil and his story! he was and forever will be one of a kind, a true man. please understand that you have a friend in me and no matter what you can call Toronto home.....

love and peace

Hi Laura,

I was so sad to hear about Virgil passing away. I didn't know him well, but even in my brief glimpse I could tell he was a remarkable man.

I met you and him in passing at the AR2005 conference in Los Angeles. Did you know that the AR2007 conference, coming up in just a couple weeks, will have a special tribute to Virgil at its closing ceremony? It will be led by Karen Davis and George Shea at the Sunday banquet.

There are hundreds and thousands of people who stand by you in the midst of your pain and struggle. These days for you are full of ache and pain and drifting in confusion. These days will pass, and though it may be close to impossible to believe right now, you will have more and more moments of finding life well worth the living.

One of the many sending you love and strength from afar,

Dearest Laura, it is so good to hear from you. I can understand how it is hard to turn on the computer, but please don't forget that you have friends in cyberspace.

Is there anything that we can do for you?

Love you Laura, from Alka and Bruce.
Laura, you don't know me but I have been more moved than I can tell you by the life and work you shared with Virgil. I wish there was some way I could do something, say something to make you feel better, even for a minute. I have read everything I can find online about you and Virgil or interviews with the two of you and I am awestruck by your passion and commitment to our animal brethren. I am vegan and a former animal rescuer. My parents and their people are from rural Arkansas and I know how hard it must be for people of our beliefs to live there. I live in Oklahoma now, so it's not much better here for the most part. I mean we just outlawed cockfighting a few years ago, for example. Jeez. Cockfighting.

There are alot of people out here who hope you will one day be able to write more and tell us how you are and what, if anything, we can do to help. Until then, take care of yourself and let the animals comfort you, even as you comfort them. Please feel free to write anytime if you need anything, or just to talk.

Most Sincerely,
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